confused mind

I feel insecure, I want you. Its just that object is always coming back and blocks a wall. I'm just a kid thinking she's in love when she barely knows what love is. The thoughts of loosing you one more time kills, and scares the shit out of me. I just know that I always want you to be a part of my life, no matter what comes ahead. I fell for you HARD, and that's a true fact. With you there is always a bright side. I'm confused, and don't know what to do or say. I want to talk to you but, you won't. But I will always respect your decisions 24/7. What you say is like a code hard to understand maybe because I'm lost in my own world. I still have to talk to you I just don't have the guts and it is KILLING ME.